Caleb's Crappy Confesional Corner

[thebankston]

So, here we are, one hour before the voting deadline. I might be screwed. Joaq might be screwed. I honestly have no idea. Monica says they've agreed to vote for me this evening, but that could easily be them covering their bases in case of an idol. Monica says she's not playing one, though, so I don't know. Linguistics-wise, she'd be telling the truth, in the scenario where she's given it to Joaq. That'd be a smart move done for dumb reasons. It's fine, though. It's fitting that I get screwed over by "allies" in Rustic for the second time in a row. I have terrible luck in choosing allies in this ORG, lool.

I'm making some last minute moves, but I think shit is locked down. Really, all I can do now is try to make sure the vote doesn't change last minute. I'm purposely being an asshole to Ami and Monica, much like I did to Alexis/Monica in S1. Except this time the point is to make myself not look like a jury threat, and to make Hmong feel like they should keep me, due to this new "feud". I feel bad about it, but them insulting me all last night and this evening makes me feel a lot better about it. 

I don't know what else to write here. Basically, if I'm gone, I'm gone, and if I stay, I stay. I can't prevent idol play, and there's only so much I can do to stop stupid players from making stupid decisions. Blech.

[thebankston]

Round . . . Twelve? -- Redemption or Bust

"Bet you're surprised to see me here"

Holy crap, I'm so psyched that my shit worked out! w00p w00p! And here we are, Final 7 once more. At least if I go now, it'd be hilarious. Does this mean I'm getting my second Rustic All-Star spot? That'd be mighty fine. 

I'm not sure yet if my position is better or worse, now that everyone knows about Rufus' mole idol, and Monica's merge idol. I'm only PRINCE Caleb now, though, so I suppose it can't be all that bad. Monica is definitely going to be gunning for me, though, due to the panic-lie that I was forced into telling Tyson, in order to try and keep his vote. Basically, he wanted to know why I tried to get him out last round. I can't just tell him because he's a goat, though, and I knew he wanted Monica out, so . . . I told him that my goal was to get Monica out by targeting him. If he or Rudy had the mole idol, they'd use it on Tyson, and Monica would go with the second highest votes. I really just wanted to see if Rudy was telling the truth, though. Anyway, I told him that he could use this to make sure I stay loyal to him and Rudy this round. There's no way I work with Monica and Ami, anyway.

There's still so much that could go wrong for me with these idols about, though. There may be bigger fish to fry, perhaps, but I wouldn't put it past Monica and Ami to play emotionally. This round, my goal is to try and build trust with the Hmongs. I already know Ami and Monica are going to continue on trying to tarnish my image, so I'm not going to give them any ammunition against me. Unless I have to.

OH YEAH, and wow, I didn't peg Joaqamole as the type to bitterly throw people UTB after being voted off. I hate players that do that. Rudy could have screwed me over, and I still would have kept his mole idol to myself. Blech.

[thebankston]

I'm so heartbroken at getting so close to winning immunity! Ugh! It's like I'm just not meant to win these things, unless accidentally. Ah well, I'm over it. Mostly.

So, the "plan" right now is to split the votes between Monica and Ami, 3-2 respectively. I put plan in quotes, because I've been in this game long enough to know that it never works out that easily this season. The ideal scenario for a lot of these people is to actually tie the votes between Monica and Rudy, they both burn their idols, and then Ami goes home, unless they decide to vote me out, instead. Two burnt idols, and chaos going into the F6. That's what you want.

But it's not what I want! I mean, obviously I don't want them to try and #blindside me again, but I'm also fairly convinced that Rudy is lying about being able to use his mole idol until F5. I don't know if Natalie would do that, allow two people to have Tyler Perry idols from the start. I feel like the idols expired when we merged, which is also when the mole twist "ended". So, if they try to burn the mole idol, Rudy could be going home, which then makes me the biggest target going into a chaotic F6. No thanks.

I'm not sure if I want to do anything too aggressive about it either, though. The last thing I want to do right now is wave my arms around going "Look at me! I'm still here!". Like, they obviously see me as a threat, but I don't want them seeing me as a threat which should go this round, specifically. My plan is to just sit back and not say anything about Rufus' idol. Normally, I'd be trying to make sure he's the potential blindside target over me, but it's much better for me if he stays.

For myself, I'm just not saying anything to Monica or Ami. I convinced Rudy that Joaq told me Monica was supposed to play her idol on him last round, and I got him to tell people that Joaq told HIM that, instead of me. Now if Monica hears that people know about her idol, she could potentially think Joaq leaked it, and not me. Huehuehue 

[thebankston]

Getting that last minute TC apprehension again! Monica and Ami haven't spoken to me once this round. This makes me think one of two things; A) They're comfortable with the idol play, or B) They've got a plan with others, and I'm not part of it. 

The smart thing to do would be to flip on Rudy, make him burn his mole idol, and then maybe tie it between Ami and I. I'm still pretty sure the mole idol is expired, though, so Rudy would go home there. I'd stay, but my path to FTC would become way more challenging. On the other hand, maybe they've got three votes on me, two votes on Ami, and two on Monica. That move would be dumb as fuck, unless they knew Rudy's mole idol was expired, and that Monica would be burning her merge idol. Hmm.

People are only starting to talk to me now. This would worry me a lot more if the tribe hadn't been an absolute graveyard this round, lol. Still, I've got those last minute jitters, and I wouldn't be surprised at all if there were faint hints of hooliganism in the air this evening . . . 

[thebankston]

Exit Confessional 

Well, of course my Rustic game comes to a close once more at the hands of someone else's sheer stupidity. How fitting. I'm sure I'll come to find the hilarity in going out seventh place in Rustic both times due to an ally fucking up hard, but for now, I'm just going to be frustrated for a bit. 

This game has been pretty challenging this season . . . for all the wrong reasons. Regardless, I had a lot of fun, and I hope you all enjoyed watching me play! 

[thebankston]

Jury Confessional

That's right, y'all thought these confessions were over, didn't you?!
SURPRISE! 

So, I guess I should go more in-depth as to what I think went down with my boot, especially with the knowledge I've gotten from the jury. All this time, I thought Monica was the one behind the manipulation of Aras, but Joaq told me that it was actually Ami who tricked him into coming after me. Aras and Ami are in an alliance. Simple coincidence? Ugh, I'm still annoyed that I aligned with idiots, though. I did sort of fuck up by not doing anything last round, however. I figured voting for me outright was simply too stupid to worry about. Boy, was I wrong!  The best part is, my back up plan was switching my vote onto Monica, if I thought I was going to get more than two votes. If I'd done that, I'd have still been in the game right now! It's like I told Rudy early on in the merge, "As soon as you underestimate how stupid people can be while playing Survivor, you get #blindsided". 

I know some people are going to chock these views up to bitterness, and to some extent, maybe it is. But, let's say you're Aras. You go to the F4 with Monica and Ami . . . and Tyson, since who votes the goat out. You'd better win that immunity, cause again, who votes the goat out? Nobody is keeping Aras over Tyson. He had a path to the finals with Rudy and I, Jeremiah and I, Jeremiah and Tyson, or even me/ Rudy and Tyson. From where I'm standing, it looks like the guy got played, fucked his game up, and now he's a dead man walking. Even if he flips back, nobody is going to trust him much on either side. Not to mention the merge idol, and the threat of a Tyler Perry idol.

Enough Aras bashing, though. He was a nice enough guy outside of making a stupid move, and if he surprises me and somehow makes FTC, I would strongly consider voting for him. So long as he didn't stumble into it.

I've had a really awesome time playing this season, anyway, regardless of only tying my Rustic record, and my F2 alliances quitting and/or getting kicked out! I'm amazed I even made it this far with all that, really, and I'm pretty proud of my game. Not bad for my first time playing the background game, I think. My only regret is not being able to go HAM, as I was planning on doing after 7. Man, I had some crazy shit in store for the final couple of rounds. Guess it'll just have to wait until All-Stars, eh?

[thebankston]

Finale Thoughts

A satisfying close to this season, I'd say . . . at least for me. I wasn't going to win. I knew this since the swap. Screwed by dumb allies at seven again, though? Dang. I wasn't expecting that while legitimately planning on taking them to the end with me. And manipulated at the hands of Monica "You're a retard for not voting the way I want!" Padilla? Fucking kek worthy. I feel bad for them in a way. Being on the jury, at least I can sit back and watch the goofs who flipped on me sabotage their games even further, though. That seems to be exactly what's happened here. By not flushing at least one of the idols, Aras and Jeremiah set themselves up perfectly for one of them to go home. I thought it would have been Aras, but then Jeremiah's terrible post-merge social game took rise once more, and he got himself voted off, instead. And then Aras went, because only he and Monica were left as the only two endurance threats left in the game, which is exactly what I warned him about right before the merge. Hah.

So, Rudy or Ubla--I mean, uh, Monica is winning this thing. Not bad. Rudy played very well. It's just too bad people on the jury are bitter about his gameplay. Ublazica normally has a horrendous social game . . . but she knew exactly which buttons to push with the Tweedle Twosome, and not to mention Joaq and Ami before them. She beat me at goat management, and I can definitely respect that. Even though I don't like her, I would not be saddened at all if she won. Rudy vs Monica would be a tough call for me. Might come down to the jury questions. I'm sort of hoping we get that F2, cause otherwise, whoever sits beside Ami cleans up. 

[Host Natalie]

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